Well four days ago I officially graduated from high school & it really doesn't feel like it . It was the best & the most bittersweet thing I've ever done . I feel like I need more time in high school, especially because of one person that was there . Him . I don't know what to do . I really like him & people always tell me that they think he likes me too but he's never actually said it out of HIS mouth . My friend Tiffanie told me I should just ask does he want to hang out this summer but too scared to ask him :/ . I hate always being afraid of rejection & what someone's going to say or do to me . I don't like feeling helpless but I need to tell him some kind of way ... But enough about that . I haven't been on here in sooooo long & i'm really sorry to my viewers . Let me update you on a few things . First, I made my own website: http://erialwilson.wix.com/lifeasiknowit , I have Instagram: __hellolove__ & Twitter: ayoo_bubbles_ . Second, I finished high school & will be going to college in the fall, even though I kinda want to take a semester off . Third, i'm tired . I'm tired of being tired, tired of not being able to find my someone while all my friends have someone, tired of struggling, & most of all, tired of this thyroid condition . It really takes a toll on me . I'm always tired, sick, sleepy, & just feel like I can't do anything . I just don't understand why this happened to me, but at the same time I do . I never knew how strong I actually was until I was diagnosed with this but I still feel so helpless & vulnerable at times . I just wish it was something I could do to make this whole thing go away ... I don't know what to do or say right now . I just want everthing to be okay & back to normal like the way it used to be . Quote of the Day (well song lyrics actually):
For the way you changed my plans
For being the perfect distraction
For the way you took the idea that I have
Of everything that I wanted to have
And made me see there was something missing, oh yeah
For the ending of my first begin
And for the rare and unexpected friend
For the way you're something that I'd never choose
But at the same time, something I don't wanna lose
And never wanna be without ever again
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So when you were here I had no idea
You the best thing I never knew I needed
So now it's so clear, I need you here always
My accidental happily
(Ever after)
The way you smile and how you comfort me
(With your laughter)
I must admit you were not a part of my book
But now if you open it up and take a look
You're the beginning and the end of every chapter
For being the perfect distraction
For the way you took the idea that I have
Of everything that I wanted to have
And made me see there was something missing, oh yeah
For the ending of my first begin
And for the rare and unexpected friend
For the way you're something that I'd never choose
But at the same time, something I don't wanna lose
And never wanna be without ever again
You're the best thing I never knew I needed
So when you were here I had no idea
You the best thing I never knew I needed
So now it's so clear, I need you here always
My accidental happily
(Ever after)
The way you smile and how you comfort me
(With your laughter)
I must admit you were not a part of my book
But now if you open it up and take a look
You're the beginning and the end of every chapter
-Ne-Yo - Never Knew I Needed
Tuesday, May 28, 2013 9:38 a.m. CDT
